Sad.. sooooo sad...

The driver in this story is my first cousin. We grew up together, he is like a little brother to me.

He has two broken arms, a broken leg, and they operated for over 5 hours to put in pins and plates and set the breaks. he is physically ok. Emotionally he'll never be the same. The lone driver of the other vehicle is his best friend and was to be the Best man at their wedding in this coming august. He was not physically hurt much at all. bumps and bruises. but emotionally as well a basket case.

Life is short folks...cherish it....don't screw around.

Woman dies in collision


Fri. Apr 17 - 9:01 AM
 MARBLE MOUNTAIN — One person is dead after a head-on crash in Cape Breton early Thursday morning.

  Paramedics and emergency crews received reports of the two-vehicle collision in the Marble Mountain, Inverness County, region at 7:20 a.m., said Krista Beck, spokeswoman for Emergency Health Services.

  Christina Louise Crant, 26, died at the scene. The vehicle she was travelling in crossed the centre line and collided with a pickup, an RCMP news release said.

  Her 29-year-old fiance had been the driver of the car, RCMP Sgt. Brian Rehill said.

  The man had been trapped in­side when emergency crews ar­rived. He was airlifted to the Queen Elizabeth II Health Sci­ences Centre in Halifax with se­rious injuries, Sgt. Rehill said.

  There was no update on his condition later in the day.

  Another man, the driver and lone occupant of the truck, was taken to the Strait Richmond Hospital by ambulance.

  Police did not know the extent of the man's injuries. He is be­lieved to be in his 30s, RCMP said.

  The victims are all from the River Denys area, Sgt. Rehill said.

  Neither alcohol nor weather is believed to be a factor in the crash.

  "Roads were dry at the time, so the matter's under investiga­tion," Sgt. Rehill said. "We're trying to figure out what hap­pened here."

One Word Wednesday

SUNSHINE!!!!!

About Me- According To My Children

About Me...according to my kid

Ask your child the following questions and write down their answers exactly how they answer. It's fun to see what they come up with! the trick is you HAVE to write what they say.. if you chose to do it, you can't stop... I dare ya :P

According to my 8 year old daughter

1. What is something I always say to you?
uhhh...i don't know...sometimes you say I love you

2. What makes me happy?
uhhh....when I draw you flowers?

3. What makes me sad?
unnn....i don't know

4. How do I make you laugh?
uhhh..by farting ( crap I didn't want to do this interview, i KNEW she'd say that)

5. What do you think I was like as a child?
hmmm-pretty

6. How old am I?
40 un no, not 40..unnn 34 ( she's right)

7. How tall am I?
ummmmm4 foot 11 i think ( she's right)

8. What is my favorite thing to do?
ummmm..hmmmm....i think your favorite thing to do is singing and playing guitar

9. What do I do when you're not around?
uhhh... cuddle with daddy

10. If I become famous, what will it be for?
ummm....singing and playing guitar

11. What am I really good at?
ummm....hmmmmm....i really think that your good at recording stuff on your computer that is music

12. What am I not really good at?
ummm...i don't know ( good answer)

13. What is my job?
being a mommy, or my mommmy

14. What is my favorite food?
i don;t know...maybe it's everything..lol ( that's her laugh out loud not mine)

15. What makes you proud of me?
when you give me big big big hugs

16. If I were a cartoon character, who would I be?
ummm...super mommy?

17. What do you and I do together?
we paint sometimes, draw pictures, and sometimes you teach me the guitar

18. How are we the same?
we are both girls

19. How are you and I different?
ummm...you're older then me

20. How do you know that I love you?
umm you give me kisses and hugs good night.

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According to my 4 year old son

1. What is something I always say to you?
ummm..uhhh..i'm gonna fink....knock knock...i don't know

2. What makes me happy?
ummm..making a sandwich

3. What makes me sad?
ummm running around in the house and stores


4. How do I make you laugh?
ummm..by saying farts


5. What do you think I was like as a child?
i don't know

6. How old am I?
i don't know...mommy...how old are you now?


7. How tall am I?
write how tall you are so I can see and then I'll tell you

8. What is my favorite thing to do?
umm clean up the house

9. What do I do when you're not around?
ummm talk to daddy

10. If I become famous, what will it be for?
ummm....i'm finking....(long pause giggling on the floor finking)....umm say "what makes you happy again..."

11. What am I really good at?
cleaning the house

12. What am I not really good at?
you weren't good at feeding horizon...( he says with a pause after thinking for a few minutes) he wants me to erase that cause I laughed and went ohh man.. last week i accidentally killed one of our budgies by forgetting to fill the food dish for some consecutive busy days :(

13. What is my job?
ummm. your job is cleaning the house

14. What is my favorite food?
ummmm...i know what your favorite food is...chicken and potatoes and, and.......cheesecake

15. What makes you proud of me?
ummm cleaning the house for me

16. If I were a cartoon character, who would I be?
ummmm....in my world you'd be super girl

17. What do you and I do together?
ummmmmmmmmmm.feed the birdies

18. How are we the same?
wearing clothes

19. How are you and I different?
you are wearing a white shirt and black pants, and I am wearing red jammies with chinkmunks on them


20. How do you know that I love you?
for getting us this house ( he means he knows that I love him cause we got this house to live in and he loves it here)

Someone else's trash...

With the warmer weather coming finally I am able to be in the workshop, that is minimally heated, and start setting it up for the purposes we have intended.

Over the last few days I've moved the stuff in the corner intended for the craft & sewing area, and started putting in the large furniture. But today my 8 year old daughter and I went out and got the majority of it done. Now over the next little while, we'll be sorting the boxes and boxes of materials, setting up the painting and drawing areas for the kids, filing the papers we have of magazine articles of craft ideas, "junk-booking" materials, and organizing the decoupage-jewelry making, and other assorted areas for all the different things we like to do & try.

we measured the space we decided to allot, and will eventually build walls around & the craft sewing area takes up the equivalent of a 10 by 14 room at the moment, with the plans to build UP, and make a lofty area above for storage and other crafts that could be done up there.

the amazing thing I realized moving it all around and such, is that every piece of furniture in the area is either a junk pile find, a hand me down from friends and neighbors, a side road "free take me" find, or a freecycle item.

The filing cabinet is from my old high school's Science Lab my dad got me when they were tearing it down to build the new school back in 1998ish & I'm building organization filing shelves for the kids crafting with papers etc to the left you can't see in the picture right now with ketchup boxes from the local grocery stores, MEGA bargain sale...LOL...works good for that.

I'll take better pics late when it is all done. the paintings were here when we moved. we stuck them on nails that were already in the walls..lol

Gut Instinct or Obsessing?

 I feel very strongly that a medical professional thinks I'm a hypochondriac because I am aware of my own body, and I consider symptoms to usually be a sign of something going on that needs to be looked at and when they show up, I'll go to this peron and say.. this is what's happening...i'm concerned it looks like...let's check it out. Now to clarify, I have not done this excessively, and I am NOT a person to run to a medical professional for every single little thing. What has precipitated this additude from this peron is that I made requests in the past year for specific tests to rule out specific stuff. The one test I did get done came from the ER doctor ordering it due to the issue I presented with, but my family practitioner never followe up. I asked my family practitioner for a referral to a neurologist and for MONTHS the referral never came... & was apparently "lost" & only done once I pushed for it...MANY MONTHS later, asking why it was taking so long.There is a family history of an issue that concerned me, and with vague information from my mother, I was trying to inquire as to the issue. given the ongoing symptoms I've had and what this looked like when you add up all the separate things I've been diagnosed with over the last 4 years. Now it is almost a full year later since the first request and things show to be normal based on head only cat scan and EEG I had done, though I'm still have the dizzy spells, walking balance issues, sore neck, headaches, numb patches on my back, and tinglness on my back, along with chronic and worsening lower back and hip pain. etc. This seems to be as far as it is bein taken with this professional....and for some time now I've had an issue getting them to even document my hip and lower back pain in writing. at the last 3 appointments ( in the span of maybe 6 months) I've But saying. I have this tingly patch on my back, my hip hurts a lot, and it never gets written down, and then was told that that kind of thing can't be xrayed t check until it has been an official complaint for over 6 months, though I've been mentioning it for years. Anyway...this professional has also recently held  my annual PAP test results from me on purpose for 5 months until it was time to do a retest to make sure things are fine & because the test came back with abnormalities. I feel manipulated & like I can't trust this professional & also feel like in future they won't take my concerns serious given that they have a bias in that direction against me. This professional admitted to me today that the results were held back from me on purpose because they "knew you would spend the whole 6 months fretting".

I'm feeling sick about it, and I can't let it go, but I'm not sure I should be letting it go...my gut tells me otherwise. Others say I'm obsessing. At this point I'm really not feeling comfortabel gong back to them about the ongoing pain, and seemingly nerve issues in my neck and back/spine. Dh and I have decided to go around this person and go to a clinic and see a differetn doctor and explain the situation and see if perhaps they'll order the tests, or will refer me to a specialist to look deeper into the issues, I'm having.<SIGH>

After all that my boy fell alseep on my bed & looked @me smiled& said i wove u mommy :) I cried!!
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Is there a last straw?

do I sigh....keep it in and keep plugging away? Should I climb to the top of a mountain and scream
 until I can no longer hear, and no longer have a voice? or just sit here on the floor in the kitchen crying as I wipe up the apple raspberry sauce my 4 year old just spilled all ALLLLL over the floor. No I can't sit here crying... I have too much stuff todo, and it never ends. I'm painfully reminded that becaue I was catching up on dishes and cutting wood for the terribly cold day it is today, that I have not been doing the laundry and I have a dry load to fold. two loads to dry and way too many loads yet to wash...

I look at the clock wonering when bedtime is? the melatonin should hvae kick in by now, but he's now tettering upside down on the rocking chair on his head balancing. I wonder if I have the energy and paitence to parent at this very moment, or should I just crawl under the covers in a fetl postion and seek mothering myself.

Where does the drive come from... the will to keep going. the patience needed to politely ask what the 1 millionth time you hear "mommyyy" in that shrill, high squeal pitch, knowing, JUST knowing that you're about to hear about the injustice done to one by the other.

and as I blog this to prevent myself from slipping into that insanity i HOPE all mothers some days feel. I'm interrupted by the DH telling me that he wants to TV to watcha  movie with the girl.. and so.... I have to stop what I'm writing...
  will I get back to this later.. not likely.. and it shall remain unfinished. like everything else on my to do list.